Sorry, I've been in Colorado over the July 4th weekend.

I think it's great to ask outsiders for their viewpoint on a problem or situation. I also think it's not that bad of an idea to get opinions of people who know you best and are very close to you so they've heard and know what it's all about. I got both and it's helped in some ways. Mostly I've had to attempt to sift through this mess myself as it was my own problem to begin with. A lot of things have happened since I last posted, but I don't feel like listing every detail or thought I've got towards anything about it. Some will suffice.

Basically though, I don't plan on living a life of regret or could've/should've happened. I'm going to transfer to her university (not transferring just because of her though, just one of my many reasons) and if anything happens between us, then that's how things will go. If not, then I found out what I wanted to know and I can go on with my life. I'd rather have her as a friend than nothing anyways. I'm still in love with her, but I can't just keep thinking about it or it's going to eat me up inside. I told her what I felt and we haven't really said anything about it. I haven't talked to her since I left, but the last time I talked to her she told me she was really happy because her boyfriend was with her. I just let her be happy even if it's someone else that's going to make her happy.